Hmmm. So, here I am. Almost two months since I made beads for sale. Does it bother me? Yes and no. Yes, in the sense I keep wondering what the hell has happened that's made me lose interest. No, in the sense that I have other things on my plate that are way more important to me at this moment in time, and melting glass seems like something I used to do in another life. I did make 4 round beads on Saturday. I absolutely hated them, and although they made it into the kiln, I'm not happy enough with them that I would even consider selling them.
I've spent quite a considerable amount of time the last few days looking through all the photos of beads I've made the past 7+ years. Oh, the agony. I almost started crying - as I've already said, it felt like another life. The only good thing to come out of the whole exercise is that a part of me, a very tiny part, still felt the desire to melt glass. I'm hoping that's a good sign. Time will tell.
So, beads aside, what else to talk about? Well, my brother-in-law. He has a brain tumour, and it looks like he only has weeks to live. I haven't seen him for a few weeks, but Russ saw him last weekend, and although he's obviously ill, he is apparently still in fairly good spirits most of the time. We're planning to see him this Saturday. He's going into palliative care very soon, so, unfortunately, that's not a good sign. Radiotherapy hasn't worked, he's only had one treatment with chemotherapy as the doctors believe it's not going to do any good. So now it's just a waiting game. Not good news, it's not fair, but that's life isn't it? The only thing any of us can be sure about in life is that we're going to die. I really try to get my head around the point of it all, but, the more I think about it, the more I feel there is no logic to it.
I do however believe that death is not the end. As a matter of fact, I believe that death is only the beginning. And what does that mean, you may ask? Well, it's not easy to explain. Although I was raised Catholic, I absolutely loathe organised religion. I have no problem with people who feel that organised religion is right for them, but it just doesn't work for me. I do however believe, no, I am *positive* that this existence, this physicial existence, is merely a journey - one of many. I believe we choose to come to the physical world. I believe we choose our life path. I believe we choose who we surround ourselves with. I believe we choose EVERY major event in our lives - including our death. I believe that we leave the physical body when we die, but we return home to our true home - that of the spiritual world.
Okay, so enough of that. Not going to bore you too much. If you want to look for evidence that death is not the end, search my "Stuff I Love" links or do your own research. The evidence is there if only you look.
Can you believe that Christmas is just over 2 months away? I'm not that big on Christmas - well, not in the sense of presents. The two things I *LOVE* about Christmas are the TV programs (and is it just me, or has there not been all that much in the way of Christmas shows on TV the past few years?) and the decorations. I've been spending up big on decorations the past few weeks in preparation - everything from ornaments to decorations for the tree, to LED lights for the garden. I seriously LOVE Christmas decorations. I'm almost eccentric enough to keep my house decorated for Christmas 365 days of the year. As a matter of fact, as I'm typing this, one of my newest Christmas decoration purchases is adorning the entertainment unit - a cute Christmas village with a train slowly making its way around the village, complete with changing colour LED lights, snow covered driveways and Christmas carols. Yes, I realise it's only October, but like I said, I just love the whole Christmas decoration "thing". There's something so magical about it.
Well enough raving on for one day. Will update again soon.
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