I'm Sick Of It All. . .

Excuse me for a moment while I scream. . .

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sick of being taken advantage of. I'm sick of people getting on my good side for their own selfish ends. I'm sick of people who lie to my face without so much as blinking. I'm sick of two-faced hypocrits. I'm sick of doing good things for people, only to be repaid by being kicked in the head when I need their assistance the most. I'm sick of worrying.

Quite frankly, I'm sick of it all.

No longer will I be taken for a fool. Not for one minute more. The buck stops here. I refuse to get into the gutter with these individuals, but you will NOT for another millisecond, take advantage of me. From now, I will do what I have to do, and not an ounce more. You've taken me for a fool long enough.

Let this be your warning.

PS. I meant to say, that I attempted to go off my anti-depressants two days ago. I needed a new prescription and thought, "hey, I'll see if I can go without them for a while". Well, that idea actually lasted all of about 1.5 days, until around 10.30 am this morning when I had to attend the 24-hour medical centre (it's Anzac Day here today, hence having to drop my usual high standards for medical care down to 24-hour medical centres) to have the prescription re-filled as I could feel a panic attack coming on. Now I have around a year's worth and I most definitely will not be going off them again any time soon. Apart from the emotional issues that are going on in my life at the moment, the physical symptoms just about knocked me out. Weird really, as I'm only on half a tablet (10 mg) a day, and apart from constant tiredness and yawning, I had never suffered with any side effects whilst I was on them. Going off them however was an entirely different matter - the symptoms of disorientation, dizziness, migraine, neck pain, eye and head pain and nausea, along with the panic attacks were just too much to stand. Oh well, as long as they keep me sane for the moment, I'm going to keep taking them.